Heartsong

I have realized lately how easily I am seduced into thinking and speaking negatively. Bitchiness is seductive, there's a meth-like rush of energy and power in anger, snideness, gossiping, cruelty. My mother, rest her soul, fell into that trap, and most of her conversation was fraught with tearing down something or someone. Sometimes it was easier to join her and feel a common bond of anger, a closeness in shared negativity. Those seeds take root so easily. I want to tear them out.

When I focus on living a life of gratitude then my heart opens. And when my heart is open, then God enters in. I had a craving last night and this morning to read the Bible. (Please God, let me crave that more.) In Ephesians 5:18 I was halted by these words: '...making music to the Lord in your hearts". I must fill myself with the melody of life, the harmony of love. As to put an exclamation mark on this striving for a loving heart, I was led to Michael's blog today and read this.

Heartsong. I'm going to use that word as a prompt whenever my thoughts turn away from ones of Love, from ones that bring life.